Thank you for all the replies and the support, Im not a religeous person but I am more of a spiritual person, My son is only 6 and he seems to be coping well I feel like he is showing me the best way to cope by focusing on the good memories and times we all had.
She was only 33 so its a huge shock to all of us, I brought her ashes home yesterday, Im still keeping busy and trying to put our lives back together or rather trying to put our new life together as it will be nothing like the old one.
I appreceate the support from everyone on here, you all are a great group of people.