Not sure where to start so I'll just let it flow I guess.
Last night I get a phone call from a friend of mine, kinda bar buddy type girl, booty call, you get the picture. I figured that she was out somewhere for St. Patrick's day and was wondering if I was anywhere. I didn't answer because I was actually at home, with my girlfriend, playing video games and drinking some Killian's since I never even thought to brew an Irish beer for the occasion.
Anyway, I just let it go to voicemail and she left a message. I figure I'll check it later. So I did, checked it later, and she says, "Hey I need to talk to you about something, its kind of important, so just give me a call back tomorrow or whatever." I'm thinking that this is rather odd since I haven't really talked to her since the new GF and I started dating, except to tell her that I have a new GF and I don't think she would appreciate me getting booty calls. Have not heard from her since. Until last night. So, I get to thinking that I am going to need to go to the med center to get checked out or something, fearing the worst, you know how it is. So I actually called her back later and she drops a bomb on me. "I'm pregnant." My head starts spinning and all I can think is ohh fuuuuuuccckkk. But I don't ever remember uhh, how do I put this while staying PG-13 ... "flooding the cave", so to speak. Then she tells me she just found out and she is shocked too because she had a specific form of cancer in the past and isn't really supposed to be able have children without some serious difficulties in even Getting pregnant. I called her the morning after the last time we ever did it and told her I think she should go get that morning after pill because I was not certain if any slipped out, before pull out. She obliged but ended up not taking it because she was apparently allergic to it after reading the box and consulting her doctor and she then had her Aunt Flow come for a visit that very same day. She and I both thought everything was in the clear so we kinda parted ways after that.
So...At this point I am thinking back to the timeframe she is telling me about and I was like, wait a minute I know I wasn't the only guy she was with at that time. I know this for a fact, don't ask me how, I just do.
Then I start thinking, I was pretty sure I couldn't even have kids... It hasn't happened yet and it definitely should have on MANY occasions. So what the hell gives?!!!?
Now I have to figure out how to tell this to my new girlfriend, and my family, and just everyone I guess. I am anxious, stressed out, angry, pissed, mad, everything all at once. I don't know what to do at all. I have never been in this situation before, I mean I'm 27 years old and like I said, no kids, never one "scare" either, I guess I always just thought my guys were not viable.
So, what the hell do I do? I swear I don't live in a trailer, have a mullet, or shop at Walmart. I have been employed in the same job for almost 7 years, I pay my bills on time, my taxes, everything has been going right for once in my life, FOR ONCE! Now this...
EDIT: I also got the feeling that she was asking for permission last night to abort. I'm very torn... and but we both said the same thing, "No offense, but I never wanted to have any kids with you, just some fun." She has a good job, is advancing up the corporate ladder and was planning on attending Law School in the fall. So, in a nutshell this is my personal hell for the past 24 hours....
Last night I get a phone call from a friend of mine, kinda bar buddy type girl, booty call, you get the picture. I figured that she was out somewhere for St. Patrick's day and was wondering if I was anywhere. I didn't answer because I was actually at home, with my girlfriend, playing video games and drinking some Killian's since I never even thought to brew an Irish beer for the occasion.
Anyway, I just let it go to voicemail and she left a message. I figure I'll check it later. So I did, checked it later, and she says, "Hey I need to talk to you about something, its kind of important, so just give me a call back tomorrow or whatever." I'm thinking that this is rather odd since I haven't really talked to her since the new GF and I started dating, except to tell her that I have a new GF and I don't think she would appreciate me getting booty calls. Have not heard from her since. Until last night. So, I get to thinking that I am going to need to go to the med center to get checked out or something, fearing the worst, you know how it is. So I actually called her back later and she drops a bomb on me. "I'm pregnant." My head starts spinning and all I can think is ohh fuuuuuuccckkk. But I don't ever remember uhh, how do I put this while staying PG-13 ... "flooding the cave", so to speak. Then she tells me she just found out and she is shocked too because she had a specific form of cancer in the past and isn't really supposed to be able have children without some serious difficulties in even Getting pregnant. I called her the morning after the last time we ever did it and told her I think she should go get that morning after pill because I was not certain if any slipped out, before pull out. She obliged but ended up not taking it because she was apparently allergic to it after reading the box and consulting her doctor and she then had her Aunt Flow come for a visit that very same day. She and I both thought everything was in the clear so we kinda parted ways after that.
So...At this point I am thinking back to the timeframe she is telling me about and I was like, wait a minute I know I wasn't the only guy she was with at that time. I know this for a fact, don't ask me how, I just do.
Then I start thinking, I was pretty sure I couldn't even have kids... It hasn't happened yet and it definitely should have on MANY occasions. So what the hell gives?!!!?
Now I have to figure out how to tell this to my new girlfriend, and my family, and just everyone I guess. I am anxious, stressed out, angry, pissed, mad, everything all at once. I don't know what to do at all. I have never been in this situation before, I mean I'm 27 years old and like I said, no kids, never one "scare" either, I guess I always just thought my guys were not viable.
So, what the hell do I do? I swear I don't live in a trailer, have a mullet, or shop at Walmart. I have been employed in the same job for almost 7 years, I pay my bills on time, my taxes, everything has been going right for once in my life, FOR ONCE! Now this...
EDIT: I also got the feeling that she was asking for permission last night to abort. I'm very torn... and but we both said the same thing, "No offense, but I never wanted to have any kids with you, just some fun." She has a good job, is advancing up the corporate ladder and was planning on attending Law School in the fall. So, in a nutshell this is my personal hell for the past 24 hours....