Thunder_Chicken
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Off topic, can anything really be off topic on a thread in the drunken ramblings sub section?, I'm starting to wonder if there really is something chemically wrong with my brain.
I went several weeks where I didn't have any trouble sleeping, but I was very depressed. For the last several days I've felt like I've gotten a constant dose of caffeine. I'm hyper alert, thinking faster then normal. I can't seem to get to sleep. I can't shut my mind down. The thing is, I'm not sure I'd want a cure if there is one. I know that for the next couple of weeks I'll be able to do so much it's almost scary. I've been feeling, not hyper, but extremely mentally active and focused. The downside is that I know I'll also be prone to occasional intense feelings of rage.
Am I crazy for not wanting this fixed? I've been like this for as long as I can remember. It's just recently I've started to think that it's abnormal. Is it even abnormal?
I am not a medical professional, but that sounds like bipolar to me too. I know a few people who have suffered with it. It is treatable.
But before that, I worry that maybe that you are riding a self-medicating roller coaster - melatonin and alcohol to overcome the caffeine bringing you down and caffeine to overcome the alcohol and melatonin bringing you back up. If that is what is really happening then trying to address bipolar when it really isn't bipolar is going to be a frustration, possibly counterproductive. Just a thought.
Melatonin *should* be effective in much smaller doses than you are taking, but if you take large amounts of melatonin frequently, your brain gets adjusted to it and it soon becomes ineffective. Give it a break for a while, then take it occaisionally, it will be much more effective. Also, melatonin is something that will definitely give you headaches and migraines if overdone.
I've cut my coffee and alcohol to 2 servings a day each (well, more beer on the weekend, but hey, I gotta live). I take a multivitamin in the morning and before bed I take a magnesium supplement. Magnesium is pretty great stuff - very relaxing, and safe. Just watch that you don't take too much as it give you diahrea like nothing else. I sleep pretty well.