I don't vent much and most of you don't know much about me or my life. I just need to vent for a few. I am 37 years old and my life seems to have hit a point and I don't quite know how to feel. My kids are from my first marriage and I have custody of them. They visit their mother 2 evenings a week and every other weekend. Their mother has a huge cloud of stupid that just hangs over her. My oldest daughter just got her drivers license and is planning on going off to college next year. My kids don't want to visit their mother but according to the courts here in PA I have no choice but to make them go until they are 18. I hate my job. I work as a nurses aide on the psych floor at the hospital near home. My house needs the fence around the back yard replaced and all the windows are crap. My wife who I have been married to for 10 years wants to take one last big family vacation before the oldest leaves for college. She wants to go to California next spring. How am I supposed to fix the fence, replace the windows, pay a vacation, get my daughter a car and keep my sanity? Kayla (my oldest daughter) cannot get a job because she has way to much homework so I am paying for her insurance and gas money. There isn't enough money to go around. I don't think that money is the only issue. I am not ready for my kids to be growing up and leaving home. My wife and I work different shifts. She loves her job, often times I think the job is more important than I am. This is something I have been dealing with for years and will most likely never be resolved. I am afraid when my kids are gone I will just be alone with my dog. He's getting old also so I am afraid I will be alone. How do people deal with these things as I know I am not the only one that has been through this. Is this my midlife crisis?
Thanks for listening.
Thanks for listening.