Hey all! I'm sorta stuck with my blog at the moment and am not totally sure what to do with it. And it's ... well, you can't spell 'blog' without 'drama' right?:
synopsis: I started it as a brewing/gardening/bit'o'life blog when I moved in with a dude. Because, you know, lurve and trust and that fun stuff. Well, poop hit the fan ('I tried to sleep with her because I want more power in this relationship', 'Those (ptsd-induced) panic attacks just make you seem weak. I can't love you if you're weak.') real winner, right? Because of lurve and trust influenced decisions I was at a very vulnerable point: no money, no official job (was starting a business but then it got 86ed because "I can change my mind, this is my house." so there goes that time and capital), and effectively no place to live.
Things came to a head one day and I moved out in favor of a friend's couch. I posted some 'meh, breakups suck, at least I got my kitties' posts on the blog at the very beginning and I've avoided contact with him and his friends. But since then he's been a complete and royal lout, to the point of a month after the move-out and I haven't talked to him at all, but he lets himself into where I'm staying (my parentals had an open guest room for a few days) and handed them a box of 'my stuff' (old toothbrush, *empty* bottle of soap, condoms, etc). Yeah, you read that right. He figured out where I was staying, four weeks after the breakup and chose then to give my mother a box full of garbage and condoms. Because really, we haven't proven ourself a class act before. Also, even though I don't respond to *any* of this and have even been out of town as much as possible staying with other friends to avoid all of this, he and his friends leave just enough 'you suck and are a psycho ex' messages in various ways (ie: comments on my blog, I never approved them) that I'm feeling rather vulnerable if I should I post anything else about what I've been doing...
Like, I feel like if I put up a post of "Wow, I've been having fun and beer rocks." Then he'll start increasing his efforts to be an arse? I know this sounds paranoid, but he figured out I was staying with my parents and gave my mother a box full of garbage and condoms.
Or, if I put up a "I'm tired of this" post and write about how all of this is frustrating then I give more fuel to the 'she's psycho' party.
Or, if I just put up beer recipes... well, that's no fun.
And if I post *anything* then that acknowledges that I've seen those comments and if I don't respond to them then will they try harder and I get to deal with the drama and baggage of a new batch...
so...
Thoughts? I'm tempted to just pull the blog. I'm so tired of all of this drama.