Jesus Christ (no, that's not my answer to the original question - or, wait, maybe...?), I just opened this thread for the first time and I could barely make it through the first page without welling up! I better have a beer with my baby girl soon so she won't ever have to post my name here (she's eleven months old, so that's about drinking age here in Bavaria).
There, I made a joke about it, that took off some of the existential angst.