I think I know what you mean here. I started out brewing this past summer by taking a introductory class at my local homebrew shop, which focused solely on kit brewing. Afterwards I bought a brewers best starter kit which included 5 gal boil kettle, a carboy, fermenter bucket, bottling bucket and some odds and ends. First batch was a double IPA which seemed to not fully ferment quite like I was expecting and seemed a bit too malty. Add to that I didn't understand the value of controlling the fermentation temperature, which I am sure yielded me some off flavors. Second batch was a milk stout (brewers best kit again), which in a word... sucked.
All the while I was feeling like this was nothing more than following simple instructions. I realized that I wanted to "create" my beers, and even though I'm still finding recipies and following them there is still quite a bit of interpertation involved.
If you're trying to get away from brewing kits at a minimum get yourself a larger brew kettle (I bought a 15 gal blichmann), a mash tun (10 gal cooler with false bottle will work fine) and you'll be able to start brewing full all grain batches. It's a sizeable investment for sure, but for me it's been worth it. BTW, I found a smoked pumpkin saison recipie in BYO magazine that was my second all grain, and it turned out awesome, although I did play with the ingredients a bit. It turned into an imperial saison...
good luck